The Life and Times of an American in England

This is going to be very difficult for but even more difficult for those of you that I consider more than friends.

Fri, 22 Jul 2011 20:57:46 +0100

I am so very tired of everything. The bullshit, the United States Air Force, hiding who I really am, and life in general. I’ve put up with it for so long that it’s time for me to retire.

Not everyone in the United States Air Force is an asshole, of course. My current supervisor, Staff Sergeant Joseph Robert Wooldridge, is a perfect human being. I started crying today when he said, “Happy Birthday!” to me as I was walking past him with a birthday cake than his wife had made for me. The cake may have been 3 months late but he said he would bring me one and he did. I love him so much more than you can know. He’s fought for me ever since he became my supervisor because I’m a piece of shit airman and he knows it but he still believes in taking care of his troops no matter what.

I know this is going to be hard on my family but they’re strong. My mom will be able to hold them all together for this. She’s the greatest person I’ve ever known and will ever know. No matter what I’ve done she has always been there and gotten me through it. My dad is going to have to get her and my sister past the initial shock. He has always been guiding star and I’ve tried my best to be as much like as him as possible. It’s crazy because even subconsciously I’ve turned into him. I comb my hair the exact same way and everything now.

Mom: I love you, I’m so sorry for this.

Dad: I’m sorry that I couldn’t come home and finish restoring you VW Beetle with you. I love you so much.

Tyler: We’ve had our problems in the past but you are the best sister ever. You’ve always been there for me and I know I never said it enough but I love you. <3

And now for the shocking part…

I converted to Judaism when I first got to Alaska in late 2008. This is news for my family. I am also gay. Which may not be news for my family but it is news for all of my friends here in Alaska.

Like my going away with Tony Dean yesterday I am going to go out with a bang.

Tony: I already miss you and while we didn’t have enough time together for it to grow into love, I really like you. <3

Liam Richard Thompson: Most of this is news to you. I’ve lied to you so much and for that I am sorry. I actually do love you. We’ve talked for so long and we get along so well that I am very sorry that I’ll never get the chance to meet you. I’ve always looked forward to our lunchtime chats. I wish so much that I had been able to hug you and kiss you and take care of you. I know I never said it but you’re the perfect guy for me and I’m going to miss you so much.

To all of my friends… all I can say is that I’m sorry. We’ve had some pretty good times both in Virginia and Alaska. I love all of you. I don’t know if any of you even care or even suspected that I was gay but that doesn’t matter. I loved you all as a friend loves a friend.

Fuck this is getting long… and I’ve been crying the whole time… :(

Mom… tell all of the family and NFCU family that I love them and will miss them. I know I haven’t talked to anyone from NFCU in forever and I haven’t talked to any of the extended family since I left Virginia but I love them too. Your ulu knife is here in my room. I know it’s not exactly what you wanted but it’s all I could afford.

Dad… you can have all of my guns… I’m sure the pistol will be confined as evidence for awhile and I know you wont want to keep it but it’s yours. You can even have my truck too. Your Eielson AFB shirt is here with me and of course it is yours.

Tyler… I want you to have my computer and couch. You’re the one that can use them the most.

I’m sitting here crying, chain smoking, and drinking peppermint schnapps like a boss!

I haven’t cried this much in since I got my ass beat by my parents back in the day.

At least I get to see the other side before any of you! c:

I’m actually really pissed that I couldn’t find my watch. I payed way too much for that to lose it.

And to think… all of this could have been averted if I wasn’t such a piece of shit.

Also… I’m sorry to whoever finds this mess and has to clean it up… its not your fault. It is, however, better than suicide by cops. I didn’t want any cops to have that on their conscience even though my parents wont get my life insurance now.

I know it’s going to be expensive for my parents to come up here and clean my shit up and for that I am very, very sorry.

I’m going to do my best to not leave too much of a mess. I am however going to leave behind loads of debt, both from credit cards and my vehicle loan. So parents, go ahead and sell whatever you need to of my stuff or let it be repossessed.

Goodbye everyone… I’m going to post this as soon as I have the balls to load my pistol and do it.

I love all of you. I’m sorry.

uggghhhh.... i hate people so much... but i love my boss!

Fri, 22 Jul 2011 15:02:42 +0100

He’s doing everything he can to get me out of here on August 1st!

Yes, if I remember, it was me, you and a guy from Ireland chatting, my chat name was 'Plin'. It was fun night. ^^

Good luck moving out tomorrow! Best wishes. :D

Thu, 21 Jul 2011 04:26:31 +0100

Thanks sweetheart :)

Anyone with google+ should message me :)

Thu, 21 Jul 2011 03:33:45 +0100

ugh... my room is empty... my laptop is shit... and i have nothing to do :(

Fri, 15 Jul 2011 21:49:35 +0100

Yeah as soon as you got that last post out I realised it was messing up. Damn thing. >:/

Fri, 15 Jul 2011 05:44:15 +0100

It’s quite bothersome! I just want to shank a bitch!

You're being a bitch, or is someone else? Being a bitch is fun days.

Fri, 15 Jul 2011 05:26:10 +0100

Lol tumblr is being a bitch… it’s not posting stuff right away and not letting me delete posts :(

THIS WHOLE TOWN'S A PUSSY JUST WAITING TO GET FUCKED!

Fri, 15 Jul 2011 05:20:51 +0100

16 more days to England... I can't wait! c:

Fri, 15 Jul 2011 00:37:43 +0100

Listening to dubstep and packing a lot of shit away.

Fri, 15 Jul 2011 00:34:29 +0100

It’s a good thing I’m authorized 4 bags up to 70lbs each.

Someone keep me company? <3

poagk: <3 Too true.

Mon, 11 Jul 2011 19:42:30 +0100

poagk:

<3

Too true.

feelingicanbesomeone: me(:

Mon, 11 Jul 2011 19:40:29 +0100

feelingicanbesomeone:

me(:

Your turn to fill the boyfriend application :p

Sun, 10 Jul 2011 23:31:42 +0100

I have no idea who you are… What if I don’t want to be your boyfriend?

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Sun, 10 Jul 2011 20:25:44 +0100

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Sun, 10 Jul 2011 20:23:07 +0100

Now it's your turn!

Sun, 10 Jul 2011 20:18:33 +0100

My turn for what? O.o

It's not love, it's a big crush.

Sun, 10 Jul 2011 20:17:45 +0100

Oh, well that’s fair.

Adam, Male, 6ft, 24, Blue, Black, No, No, Occasionally, Bi, Assistant Marketing, Master, Basket Ball, Blue, 1 brother 1 sister, tribal arrow next to my penis, No, Atheist, Pick if you like me, because I <3 U, picnic on a rooftop.

Sun, 10 Jul 2011 17:11:38 +0100

Blue eyes are lovely! But why do you love me? You barely know me! :p

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Sat, 09 Jul 2011 20:19:17 +0100

Tumblr Girlfriend/Boyfriend Application

Sat, 09 Jul 2011 20:15:12 +0100

thekindoffeelingwesingabout:

theloneyheartsclubband:

tylerthecreat1on:

ashkingston:

Name (Full if applicable):

Gender:

Height:

Age:

Eye Color:

Hair Color:

Virgin?:

Smoking?:

Drinking?:

Sexual Orientation:

Job:

Education Level:

Favourite Sport:

Favourite Colour:

Siblings:

Tattoos?:

Piercings?:

Religion?:

Why I should pick you:

Why you’re applying:

Perfect Date:

please do it people, I need something to do before I cry myself to death.

Pleaseeee

do it!!

if you do it, I’ll do it

Just do eet!

The Life and Times of an American in England

This is going to be very difficult for but even more difficult for those of you that I consider more than friends.

uggghhhh.... i hate people so much... but i love my boss!

Yes, if I remember, it was me, you and a guy from Ireland chatting, my chat name was 'Plin'. It was fun night. ^^ Good luck moving out tomorrow! Best wishes. :D

Anyone with google+ should message me :)

ugh... my room is empty... my laptop is shit... and i have nothing to do :(

Yeah as soon as you got that last post out I realised it was messing up. Damn thing. >:/

You're being a bitch, or is someone else? Being a bitch is fun days.

THIS WHOLE TOWN'S A PUSSY JUST WAITING TO GET FUCKED!

16 more days to England... I can't wait! c:

Listening to dubstep and packing a lot of shit away.

poagk: <3 Too true.

feelingicanbesomeone: me(:

Your turn to fill the boyfriend application :p

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Now it's your turn!

It's not love, it's a big crush.

Adam, Male, 6ft, 24, Blue, Black, No, No, Occasionally, Bi, Assistant Marketing, Master, Basket Ball, Blue, 1 brother 1 sister, tribal arrow next to my penis, No, Atheist, Pick if you like me, because I <3 U, picnic on a rooftop.

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Tumblr Girlfriend/Boyfriend Application

Yes, if I remember, it was me, you and a guy from Ireland chatting, my chat name was 'Plin'. It was fun night. ^^

Good luck moving out tomorrow! Best wishes. :D